I am feeling bored and desperate. It seems that every time I get a job it turns out to be only half the hours I expected. Am I just bad at asking for what I want? I've been acting in a way not unlike my experience of being a teenager, except with the added acknowledgement that I ought not to be acting or feeling like this, as, you know, someone who is supposed to be taking care of herself. It's much easier to deny myself things than to reach out and take them.