New scan of an old photo out what was once my kitchen window.

I occasionally find myself saying, inside my head, perhaps the least positive possible mantra: "I am not a real person, I am not a real person."

When I catch myself at it, I stop. I laugh a little, or reassure myself. Increasingly I am inclined to agree, although maybe not with the original sense. Is there a sense if it's something you didn't consciously say?