I want to exhibit. I want to perform.
What initially drew me to photography was the darkroom. You know how removing one sense blows the embers of the others. Darkness is another source of desire and fear for me. Like very loud music, it surrounds and pushes in on you(me), until I become very aware of my threatened outline.
Anyway, if I ever feel comfortable spending the money (never a question of saving so much as choosing) I'm getting some black plastic and chemicals and getting this going again because I want to be alone in the dark.