On the topic of being a whole person... it's not so much whole as in there being parts that could be missing, as a sense that all the disparate parts join up into a coherent whole. I feel like everyone I meet has a personality whereas I'm just a protean ma(e)ss of contradictory thoughts. I know this is the result of my hyperlimited exposure to other people's insides, and hyperextensive exposure to my own, but it has been impossible to shake.

I'm posting over and over today because ... I have no one to talk to and someone just asked me out which makes me very nervous and upset and I can't go back to work for another forty minutes.