There are a lot of overlaps between being emotionally safe and being closed-hearted, I fear. I don't want that, but I do want to be less terrified of speaking to other human beings. Maybe I need to go back on medication, I don't know. I'm leaning that way because there are so few parts of my life where only a small improvement needs to be made. I'm afraid I need to be very different from my current self if I'm going to achieve any of the things I really want. Why do so many of the things I want have to involve other people?
Thank god for this one-way-mirrored venue. I can only talk to you, internet, because I can pretend you aren't there.