I hate to be a sucker for somebody liking me. I'll tag along and lap it up as long as it lasts. But where does what I want come into it? I don't want to care what anybody thinks. I don't want to care about somebody because of what they think about me. I'm pulled in a million directions but I'd rather have a sense of my own forward motion. I want to be alone because I want other people so much.

Maybe I'm fighting myself too hard. It's okay to want what you want.
I'm just tired of the fear of not getting it.