There is one area where present/past me gains the narrative tug-of-war over future/present me: when I'm blackout. No second thoughts, overanalyses, or reinterpretations possible there. It's anomalous not having every word I've said, every gesture, available for instant replay in my mind's eye. Some things I've said and done are just out there, for good, with no tie to pull them back to me.