What do I want what do I want what do I want?

Some things I can legitimately say I want right now:

to perform on silks in public
to have already found a beautiful, cheap, non-smelly house to live in next year
to make some money in a way that validates me as a human being possessing skills beyond two hands with opposable thumbs
a good book to read when I get home at night
not to be afraid all the time
someone to talk to

and to take some pictures. I'm regretting the lack of a camera even more than the lack of an umbrella today.